My Jimmy
Another year has come & gone, another year filled with what-if's and wishes that will never come true. But, I know that you are watching over our family, and I ask that you continue to help us all through our struggles. You had a new niece born this year and it will be her First Christmas, I close my eyes and I see the joy in your face when I look at our Lucy. I put a tree up this year the first time in the 9 yrs since you left and I think you would be so proud of me. But then I feel bad that I’m moving on a little bit more, please know every day I wake and the first thing I think about is my Jimmy, I will never understand or move on, I will always have you in my heart . Give us a sign that you are around and are praying for our strength with so many issues that just seem to continue. I miss your voice Jimmy, your laughter, your funny faces, your hugs and kisses, but most of all I miss my son, My Jimmy. Pray for us here on earth, and please help us to understand WHY.
Until we meet again...
Mom
WHEN TOMORROW STARTS WITHOUT ME
When tomorrow starts without me
And I’m not here to see
If the sun should rise and find your eyes
All filled with tears for me
I wish you wouldn’t cry
The Way you did today
While thinking of the many things
We did not get to say
I know how much you love me
As much as I love you
Each time that you think of me
I know you will miss me too
When tomorrow starts with out me
Please try to understand
That an angel came and called my name
And took me by the hand
The angel said my place was ready
In heaven far above
And That I would have to leave behind
All those I Dearly Love
So When Tomorrow starts without me
Do not think we’re apart
For every time you think of me
Remember I’m right here in your heart
Jimmy
It is hard to believe that it has been 8 years.You are still so deep in my thoughts and memories, I can promise you that for eternity in my heart, you will alway exist.
Love you More Than Life
Mom

To My Family & Friends:
God bless you as you travel down this broken road. My love and friendship always and forever. A shadow of joy flickered; it is me. I told you I wouldn't leave. My memories my thoughts are imbedded deep in your heart. I still love you. Do not for one moment think that you have been abandoned. I am in the Light. In the corner in the hall the car the yard ~ these are the places I stay with you. My spirit rises every time you pray for me but my energy comes closer to you. Love does not diminish; it grows stronger. I am the feather that finds you in the yard the dimmed light that grows brighter in your mind I place our memories for you to see. We lived in our special way a way that now has its focus changed. I still crave your understanding and long for the many words of prayer and good fortune for my soul. I am in the Light. As you struggle to adjust without me I watch silently. Sometimes I summon up all the strength of my new world to make you notice me. Impressed by your grief I try to impress my love deeper into your consciousness. As you should I call out to the Heavens for help. You should know that the fountain of youth does exist. My soul is now healthy. Your love sends me new found energy. I am adjusting to this new world. I am with you and I am in the Light. Please don't feel bad that you can't see me. I am with you wherever you go. I protect you just as you protected me so many times. Talk to me and somehow I will find a way to answer you. Mom, Dad, Dina , Grandma, Aunts, Uncles, cousins & friends it makes no difference. Whatever our connection ~ friend or even foe ~ I see you with my new eyes. I am learning to help wherever you are wherever I am needed. This can be done because I am in the Light. When you feel despair reach out to me. I will come. My love for you truly does transcend from Heaven to Earth. Finish your life with the enthusiasm and zest that you had when we were together in the physical sense. You owe this to me but more importantly you owe it to yourself. Life continues for both of us. I am with you because I love you.
I Love you All & I will be waiting for in Heaven
Love
Jimmy

Jimmy
As I try so hard to live each day without you I hurt more and more and in my heart I know how hard you try to help me. Last night as I laid with you my eye couldn’t believe what you where doing the angle started blinking on and off and just keep getting brighter & brighter to the point I was thinking I was losing my mind than I drove around the cemetery about 5 times and you where still trying so hard to tell me you are ok. On my way up to visit you a song came on the radio The Perfect Fan which I could hear you say those words to me I Love You Mom. That is one thing I always knew.
As I think about our last Christmas together I remember you coming home from school and going to work to buy Janelle the perfect present you asked me to go shopping with you and we went picked out 2 beautiful pieces of jewelry (How proud I was of you) And oh how much fun we had.
Always putting other first. Than on to Dina’s gift you had to get something she would love and use remembering that she was going on a ski trip you got her a backpack with the water bottle in it. I can still hear you say Mom she will love this and I know she will use it. How much you loved your big sister.
Christmas Eve I still look at the picture and see you sitting at the table with everyone around you and that big smile you loved Christmas Eve and having everyone at our house your job was sitting the table and what a great job you always did.
As always Shane came to the house & the 2 of you always gave each other a box of smidgens (how funny) Than the picture of you Shane and Dina funny but that was the first year I didn’t get a picture with you & Dina.
Santa brought a camera games and clothes. Of course you loved everything. Aunt Maureen give you a gift card and you toke Janelle shopping as she needed a coat and being the person you where you used all your money to get her one.
As I write this I think what a truly special young man you where and maybe that’s why God needed you. Putting others before yourself and still trying to show me that you are around I just need to open my heart and listen.
Thank you Jimmy
I Love you Big Guy Miss you so much I wonder how to go on without you.
Merry Christmas
Love
Mom XOXOX

Starting Another Year without My Jimmy / Mom
I often lie awake at night when all the world's asleep.
I take a walk down memory lane with tears upon my cheek.
No one can see my broken heart that lies behind my smile.
No one knows the loneliness that's with me all the while.
If I could visit Heaven on all my saddest days
Then maybe for a moment the pain would go away.
I would put my arms around you and kiss your smiling face.
And then this broken heart of mine would fall gently back into place.
Jimmy I miss you so very much and here we are at the start to
another year without you. How do we go on I ask that question
everyday. WHY WHY MY JIMMY WHY???
Happy New Years (2010) My Handsome Son
Love
Mom
